I feel lost...
suddenly i just don't know where i am and what i am.. suddenly all life's plans just suddenly seems to go away.. i guess if we live life more the way it is and not plan it maybe life would take us in a different direction.. i once said i don't fear change but thats all a lie.. i fear change so much.. a small change can affect our lives so much..
what if we just dont plan to know what we want to do tomorrow we dont plan what we want to do in a weeks, a month, a year.. what if we just got in the car and just started driving with no road map.. just drive as far as we can..what if we just run away from reality for a while. what will we be able to tell ourselves? What about ourselves would we realise when we thought we knew it all..
i suddenly missed so much about the past.. in high school where it seems to be the best times of my life.. how everything was so carefree.. we can just do anything and not worrying about the next day.. but truth be told i spend very little of that.. some of it was taken away from me but i guess i still managed to live life to the fullest every chance i got..
somehow i miss all my friends in adelaide.. well not all.. i just miss eric and wayne.. how the three of us would hang out after uni.. just go to rundle mall and sit in the middle looking at all walks of life.. either drinkin at hudsons or gloria jeans or the midnight trips to the casino to have the so called free coffee which cost liek $200 sometimes and also the cheap $2 fish and chips which was bloody cheap and unhealthy but hey we survived on that for a few days each week.. the times when eric was upset and we wud just walk nowhere in the cold winter night and yet managing to make fools of ourselves and enjoy..
now when i just want someone to talk to it just seems so far away.. i guess its my own wrong doing as well not wanting to make frens and wanting to focus on my studies but looking on the bright side i have onli achieved A's and B's except for that one stupid C which was given i reckon unfairly.. i guess you make sacrificies in life.. but which one should you make is the question isnt it..
im just lost.. i dunno where i am headed, i dunno where i shud go...
suddenly i just don't know where i am and what i am.. suddenly all life's plans just suddenly seems to go away.. i guess if we live life more the way it is and not plan it maybe life would take us in a different direction.. i once said i don't fear change but thats all a lie.. i fear change so much.. a small change can affect our lives so much..
what if we just dont plan to know what we want to do tomorrow we dont plan what we want to do in a weeks, a month, a year.. what if we just got in the car and just started driving with no road map.. just drive as far as we can..what if we just run away from reality for a while. what will we be able to tell ourselves? What about ourselves would we realise when we thought we knew it all..
i suddenly missed so much about the past.. in high school where it seems to be the best times of my life.. how everything was so carefree.. we can just do anything and not worrying about the next day.. but truth be told i spend very little of that.. some of it was taken away from me but i guess i still managed to live life to the fullest every chance i got..
somehow i miss all my friends in adelaide.. well not all.. i just miss eric and wayne.. how the three of us would hang out after uni.. just go to rundle mall and sit in the middle looking at all walks of life.. either drinkin at hudsons or gloria jeans or the midnight trips to the casino to have the so called free coffee which cost liek $200 sometimes and also the cheap $2 fish and chips which was bloody cheap and unhealthy but hey we survived on that for a few days each week.. the times when eric was upset and we wud just walk nowhere in the cold winter night and yet managing to make fools of ourselves and enjoy..
now when i just want someone to talk to it just seems so far away.. i guess its my own wrong doing as well not wanting to make frens and wanting to focus on my studies but looking on the bright side i have onli achieved A's and B's except for that one stupid C which was given i reckon unfairly.. i guess you make sacrificies in life.. but which one should you make is the question isnt it..
im just lost.. i dunno where i am headed, i dunno where i shud go...
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