badminton badminton and more badminton...

the amount that we are playing badminton is making me feel good considering the gym being so stuffy that after 5 minutes you would be sweating like crazy and especially for those who cant sweat.. going to harun to play badminton is the best place you could actually play..

i realised that the way we play sports is die die must play and it doesn't really matter if we injure ourselves during the process, we will still continue playing through the pain as if nothing hurts which isn't excatlly the best way of playing sports...

people all have hearts and people all have feelings.. feelings is something which is very particulate and according to mood..no matter how upset a person could be, a compliment would cheer them up straight away.. i realised this before as when a person is upset and could be in tears, words of encouragement or compliments would cheer them up straight away.. =)

i remember in nz, there was an ad on tv by AMI insurance, the main theme was to smile, because you never know where your smile carries you and who it passes on to because a smile is all that is needed to make a person's day..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2uaKwd3wKU8&feature=related <--- watch it... =)

so everyone, keep smiling~~

It's been a hectic week, not in the sense of day to day work but more of the nightly sporting activities..it's been allright though as we sweat, we laugh, we enjoy and we cry...body has been aching all over from over excessive extreme sports..

we played volleyball on Wednesday after last playing in soton with Jason and his friends in jeans and casual shoes. that is something i will always remember as i was really reluctant to play but eventually had fun anyways. it was fun in the sense we have not all played in a long time but we didn't have enough heads so we played 4 on 4 thus dragging patricia to play as well..

but Patricia probably regrets playing due to her losing her bracelet but i beleive what is meant to be yours will forever be yours and what is meant to be lost will be lost as i have lost alot of things in the past and i know how it feels losing something important to you.. so cheer up Patricia~~

when we finished v-ball, Joan got a text from siews about their friend.. so sorry to hear about Wayne and i know how it feels to lose a friend.. i shall end my post with something i wrote for John in September 2004.

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i wrote this when i heard the traggic news of a close fren/a classmate/ a bro which passed away but nvr posted it up so i thought i shud post it up...


i'm just here to pay a tribute to a fren who passed away.. a fren which was dear and close to all of us and which will be missed teribly...

John..u are now in the hands of god...i still cant beleive this had to happen..of all people u.. but i guess this is the way god had planned for us..we will all have our times.. but John.. i just wanna say tat knowing u all these times it was really fun to be around u..all the time we went through outside and inside class.. they cant be forgotten..when in class how we fooled around.. pissed the teachers off and yet instead of get scolded by teachers we scold the teacher.. namely bennett.. but yeah.. it was really fun in class where we just talked and talked without any worries.. our exams could have been next week or the very next day for all we know and we're still not concentrating in class.. how in class we would always sleep in benett's lectures or answer the phone in class and not get caught at all.. how during exams u helped us in anyway possible..i can still remember it really well.. it was like it just happened yesterday.. i really wish we cud still be able to bring back the classroom memories...

during our exams how we would use "TECHNOLOGY" to help us when we were stuck.. well basically the whole class got help.. from one person.. it was YOU.. u helped us go through our uq exams when we needed the help... our first semester IT exam.. we had a 25 mark question on html and the whole class was blank.. u helped us through tat by sending everyone in the class 6 msges with the answers in them... thinin back it was wrong but i can freshly remember how we would come out of the exam happy coz we managed to answer the paper.. but yeahz.. everything from going to gdg to play cs or just to eat during out exam time.. damn.. how i wish we cud repeat all of those happy memories.. as we go on we remember john.. all the times we had together.. wherever u might be we will always remember u in our thoughts and prayers.. you are in the hands of god..

~i would do anything just to keep that smile on your face~

i am lost...

its been a while since i had this feeling..it only felt like yesterday that we were all in high school having our own carefree life but now we are actually all grown up and we got so much more responsibility..

it was yesterday that it felt like graduate from high school and yet it felt like only yesterday that i graduated from uni.. i took out my transcript the other day and i realised that in july, it would have been two full years that i have graduated and all the plans of studying masters and phd suddenly seem so far away.. the dream of working for a bank seems to drift away as well...


to work for your dad is something you learn but it is always going to be much easier than working for someone else as you do not actually have to work as hard but realisticly speaking you work even harder when required because its your own business..

when everything seems so right, everything seems to be in the right direction i suddenly hit a brick wall.. i dunno what i should do because its been a while since i am feeling what i am feeling now...

the last tiem i felt this way was 2003-2005 and that was a good 4 years ago.. somehow i like this feeling because of the way it feels but yet again you feel lost because you do not know how to proceed.. should you listen to your heart and do what you think is best but run the risk of rejection or should you listen to other factors and stop where you are to run risk of failure....

failure is a harsh harsh thing isnt it but i beleive if you dont try you never fail, if you dont fail and fall how would you learn to pick up yourself.. just like when you start walking.. you stoop up u walked a bit then u fall down and it repeats itself over and over before finally knowing how to walk in the end...

all i want to do is see that smile on your face~~

There was a time when I thought life was over and out
When you went away from me
My dying heart made it hard to breathe
Would sit in my room
Because I didnt want to have to go out
And see you walking by
One look and Id break right down and cry
Now you say that youve made a big mistake
Never meant to take your love away
But you can save your tired apologies
cause it may seem hard to believe
But



Im doin just fine
Getting along very well
Without you in my life
I dont need you in my life
Im doin just fine
Time made me stronger
Youre no longer on my mind
You were my earth
My number one priority
I gave me love to only you
Anything youd ask of me
I would do
But somewhere down the road
You felt a change in the weather
And told me that you had to journey on
A kiss in the wind and your love was gone
Now you say you never meant to play your games
Girl, dont you know its far too late
Because you let our love just fall apart
You no longer have a heart


When you said goodbye
I felt so all alone
There were times at night I couldnt sleep
My heart was much to weak to make it on my own
Baby after all the misery
And pain you put me through
So unfair to me girl
Youre no longer my world
And I aint missin you at all

Caesar salad from wish bone

Looks too good to eat.hope it tastes as good.

The Last time i posted i was talking about pressure.. not i am sort of relieved and yet having lots of pressure.. it made me break down.. i guess i put too much pressure on myself..

i was worried about getting into SMU because the requirement was 2 years working experience or in lieu CFA grade 1 pass.. obviously since i am only graduating in June, i don't have either requirements so i asked my dad if that was going to be a problem and i was worried
about the timings as well because i felt it was so soon..

my dad told me to postpone my masters and work first so that i am actually doing something instead of sitting around for 1 year..i am happy at that thought and yet i am worried..

but here's the thing

Happy

i'm happy because that means that i will be more relaxed, having the break that i always wanted after i graduate and i won't excatlly be rushed into doing something and yet be unsure about..

Unhappy

i'm unhappy because it kinda spoils my life plans because i wanted to finish my masters by 21 which i am next year... but i guess its all right because i'm onli 21 next year.. sigh..

well there are actually more worries that i have that i don't really wanna write down here but i guess sometimes it just gets something off your chest?

i have been craving for food from home, so i went to dinner at a malaysian restaurant with a friend yesterday and as soon as i walked in i smelt the smell of nasi lemak... i was gonna eat mee goreng but i suddenly craved for nasi lemak due to the smell..hehe.. BUT they ran out..haha..so i ate what i wanted in the first place, and the plate was HUGE!! hahaha..

anyways i bought something that i wanted to buy before..



















Plastic Shot Glasses..hahaha.. i wanted to buy plastic shot glasses but i never found any but i finally managed to find some today.. they came in pack of 20's and i bought 3 packets straight away..haha no i dun have any urge to drink or anything but i just felt like buying them anyways..lol..

this is all from me today..

The pressure is getting to me after meeting with lecturers, she was telling us that it's already week 7 and we only have 4 weeks left before handing in our project.. damn suddenly it all came crashing down, there's a whole lot of work to do before finally graduating.. the prospects of graduating is so near and yet so far..i used to tell myself when i finish my degree will be the happiest time of my life but i realised that i had much more to do before i actually finish finish.

I've got the following to complete before finishing my semester on June 22nd, the convocation ceremony will be in October some time so i will go back first but then i was thinking whether i can actually go back or not as i will have to start SMU soon after i finish..

I've got

1 industry project
1 reflection essay
1 personal vision and mission statement (personal statement)
1 Corporate Finance assignment
1 Strategic Management paper
1 Corporate Finance Exam

That's 6 more which are in my way before i finish, hope i can finish the whole thing in time, i received one of my assignments back today, satisfied with the mark i achieved though my lecturer told me i had more in me to write... i wrote well over the word limit already.. haha by about 600 words.. i got a A+ on it.. =) 86% but barely an A+, they start from 85% so yeah..

If all goes well i will finish on June 22nd, i have to quickly pack and get to go back to Brunei for a week or so. If i get into SMU, i will have to start the first week of July immediately, orientation then the first module would be two weeks then i would have a 2 month break which i would probably have to do internship, but probably can do it with a bank in Brunei.

I realised how much pressure i had and e-mailed my dad and ask if i should really do this as that would mean that it's very tight on my schedule but he replied "I Think the Timing is Perfect!", Oh my God.. thats the second time my dad said something which killed me, one was saying my grades weren't good enough for SMU becuase he saw alot of CC which means Cross Credits by the way on my current transcript thinking it was C for Credit...

I almost lost my phone today, thank goodness the lady held on to the phone and answered when i called looking for it.. if not it would be like the 3rd phone that i have lost in Auckland, yes i lost 2 so far, my Motorola E1000 and the P910i which got stolen...

that's all from me for now..

Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

(Chorus)
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

(Chorus)
And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

Oh, Oh, Oh, No.

Bon appetit.

Tuna and potato bake!

Maccers breakie

It's been a while since i last blogged...

not much has happened since then, im into my second week of holidays and i've just spend it at home sleeping and sleeping.. i want to go to the movies but i never seem to get my ass up to go.. i always stay awake in the night and sleep during the day time.. i need things to do during the day but to no avail.. i always end up sleeping during the way... sunday and monday was terrible, me trying to get back to my sleep pattern.. slept at 2am and woke up at 5am.. without being able to go back to sleep only going back to sleep in the late afternoon for another 4-5 hours making me not being able to sleep at night

last night i tried an earlier approach.. slept at 10 but i ended up waking up at 3! and i got hungry.. my body clock is really messed up and i really don't know what i can do to cure my stupid body time.. but i guess when uni starts again my clock will slowly adjust.. well that's what i hope anyways.. better to hope than not hope at all eh? but yeah.. baby kept calling me today to keep me awake but after i talk to her i lie down for a while and i just switch off, it seems i go into nightmares into nightmares.. its terrible.. sigh.. but the nightmares don't make me run its just bad dreams i guess..

when i do try to go back to bed in the early morning, i just lie in bed for 1-2 hours and think abt all sorts of things.. even when i tell myself to sleep after 10 mins i think of something else.. eeps.. i need help.. its 5pm now and i got up an hour ago and i am still sleepy.. sigh... what can i do? someone help me with this sleep.. i wan to sleep easy.. i envy those who can sleep the whole day and yet sleep the whole day.. i can't!!

i need easy sleep...

suffering from insomnia..

My terrible fried rice.

Nuggets

My dinner

Blue tissue.

Donuts.:)

I did buy my bagel with cream cheese but i ate it on the way up thus no photo.oops.i'm full and maybe it's time for bed.hehe.

And after a good breakfast

We have one happy customer.hehe.